Erika’s response to Satomi:
“Wow!! …Tears of Joy and Gratitude!! Gratitude for your strength, determination, and trust in yourself, to give/gift yourself and your family a most incredible birthing experience! And Gratitude for my own voice, which has grown to a point of having so much influence. Thank You Satomi, for being so amazing and for Being an Inspiration and Example for Mothers everywhere, to step into the fullest experience of them-self, without fear, only Trust & Love!
I had a few favorite moments, including the jump in the pool, but top of my list was the moment your eyes lit up with renewed and revitalized energy and you said “Ok, I’m having this baby at home!” – Erika
“The first thought that comes to mind is the relief I felt when I realized I was going into labour earlier than expected. It was 2 weeks before my due date and the back pain that excruciated me during the entire pregnancy was getting worse every day. I was insomniac, and exhausted so I took this advance as a truly bless!
I took prenatal, breastfeeding, yoga and cpr classes. I read books, articles and talked with midwives, doulas, lactation experts and other moms about labour, delivery, feeding and the first hours of the baby. I was ready! I did everything I could do to prepare myself for this journey! I planned for waterbirth and to give birth to my little boy in the easiest way possible, from water to water.
I’m ready, I thought..
My water broke around 1 pm and until 5 pm I had no pain. Around 5 I started feeling little discomfort, like menstrual cramps, still bearable. Since the beginning I was worried about the backpain because after 9 months of constant pain I was sure it wouldn’t give me a break during labour.
Sure enough… the first strong contraction took my breath away because it was like a knife in my low back. Real contractions began around 9 pm and I felt I was going to pass out with every, single one.
During the past months my husband helped me relieve my pain with some positions learned during the prenatal class but I wasn’t able to put them in practice at all during labour. I was stuck on my couch, sit and unable to breathe and change position.
At 1 am my doula arrived. She helped me with breathing, tens, hot showers. I remember I totally forgot English, I kept speaking Italian saying “I can’t do it, it’s too much”
After another 3 hours contractions were really long and close so we went to the hospital.
At BC women’s I met one of my midwives, she checked the dilatation and I was only 3 cm.
I still remember the panic that invaded me
I thought I could not survive without knowing how many hours I still had to withstand that pain.
They offered me morphine and to go home and then come back after a good sleep
Go back home?? No way! I’d rather have spent the rest of my labour in the parking lot, I thought.
The alternative they gave me was to be admitted at the hospital but also accepting induction. I wasn’t enthusiastic about induction actually…
Then my midwife proposed to go for epidural.
I accepted and after the epidural procedure, when I finally was able to breathe again, I felt like I had failed my first task as a mum: I’ve been weak and I wasn’t able to stay with my son during this journey.
Turned out that epidural was the best choice, without the back pain my whole body relaxed enough to gain 6cm of dilatation in few hours.
My midwife told me that she’s never had seen an epidural so effective!
My little boy was born after 4 hours of pushing, so overall after 27 hours since the water broke.
I’m so glad to have had not only my husband but also amazing midwife and doula and an extraordinary nurse. They supported me and my choices every step and they cheered me up when I felt down.
Now that everything went well I know that I wasn’t weak, I didn’t abandon my son to his destiny, I was with him the entire time, just not suffering like a dog.
I believe that only the mother can decide for her own body and her labour and every decision she made for her well-being is the best not only for her but also for the baby.
I hope my experience will be helpful for other women. We are strong!!”